What motivates me to be a good cyclist? There are many times I ask my self that question in a given day. Maybe I do it to be fit maybe I do it as a release from all the pressures of daily life, or is it cause I want to do good in races? Get up at 5:00am run on the treadmill for 10 minutes not even a mile complete. Stick with it 5:00am everyday listening to the same songs on the iPod starring at the same wall. Get up at 5:00am try not to think about smoking while running listening to the same songs looking at the same wall. Get up at 5:00am I can run a mile in 10 minutes what keeps me motivated, who helps me, who keeps me going? Get up at 5:00am I'm getting stronger I'm learning to suffer telling my body not to stop when it screams to do so. Get up at 5:00 am weigh myself before I run I weigh 170 now not 215. Where did all that go? Did it melt away from my muscle? I'm proud of myself I thank God for being able to be so much more fit and getting into shape. Get up at 5:00am run 3miles in 23 minutes did I just really do that. Go to the bike shop buy a mountain bike ride the mountain bike for a month. Its hard only five miles to begin with. I'm riding on the road all the time I need a road bike. Go to the bike shop put a road bike on layaway. Wow these things are expensive. Purchase the cheapest one for 700 dollars. Close on our house go and pay off road bike. Road cycling in my regular shorts and tennis shoes. Felt like the coolest bike I had ever rode in my life. There's something about this I can't explain it the sound of the tires on the road, the wind, the trees, the cars coming to close, and the simplicity of it. Go to the bike shop look at pedals. They make pedals that your shoes clip into? Weird how long has that been around? Go to MCsports buy my first pair of tights. Find out that they make shorts for cycling with a pad built into them. Go on my first group ride with Roger, Scott, Peter, Norton, Joey, and Jason. Its 32 degrees Im wearing short finger gloves. Joey offers me some of his I decline as my hands don't get to cold. First hill get dropped as I will find out thats what to call it when you are not as fast as others. Split from the group get lost add some miles onto my ride. Find my way back see Jason and Scott they help me along the rest of the way. Do more group rides get dropped more. Do more group rides get dropped more. Do more group rides get dropped more. Do more group rides get dropped more. Do you think you will shave your legs for the race season? Shave your legs isn't that kinda gay? What will your first race be? Race do I want to race what the hell I will give it a try. Sign up for Hells Kitchen as my first road race. You signed up for Hells Kitchen as your first race? Have fun on that climb. Okay what am I doing. Line up at the start line nerves you got I don't. Five minutes in I get dropped. I continue to ride with other riders at my fitness level. Get to the climb Trek 1000 triple thank God I have it. Thirty by twenty-six all the way up. People falling over next to me stopping pushing their bikes I was close finally made it. Finished my first race I love this. Do a most of the race season wearing boxer briefs under my shorts. Oh your supposed to go commando whoops. What are bibs? Those things are funny looking. Get some bibs. Get a new bike again on layaway this time a specialized tarmac expert. Holy crap 1700 dollars I could buy a car for that. Go make the last payment on my bike with a zero percent credit card. Do more races. Ride with people on different teams during the races encouraging them as they would sometimes do for me. Why do I need this it costs a lot of money. Do I really want to race this year. Is there more politics in cycling than......Politics? Do people see this sport the same way as me? Do we not all share the same love for the sport? Who is faster than who? Who has this gear? Who rides that bike? What bike do you have? Picture Eddy Merckx on his bike stringing out the peloton in the Hell of the North. Who helped me get into this sport and why? I have the answer now. IT'S GOD. He made me love this sport for some reason and want to do good things with it. Without all the politics and he said she said. I know I want to accomplish things on and off the bike to help other people. What does this mean being a missionary going on mission trips. Working in my backyard helping people with what life throws at them. Organizing rides for good causes. I don't know what it is but somehow I know God will let me know soon. I'm not your typical Christian I do things that other Christians would look down upon but I am forgiven of my sins. That's why he died on the cross for me and you. What does this all mean? I don't know. When will it start I don't know I just know it will soon.

Have you ever written your thoughts? I mean your real thoughts. Just what you are thinking at the moment in time. I just did and the best thing is I don't have to proof read. HAHAHAHAHAHA